Bell Lets Talk Day has arrived and every year I post a little blurb about my struggles with mental health. This year I decided to write a post about how I have been doing. This January has been a bit of a struggle for me. I have been feeling pretty down these last few weeks and just cant seem to get out of my funk. I know January can be a rough month for most people, with the sun not being out for long and getting over the holiday season.
I have been feeling lonely and just sad. I’m disappointed in myself because I gained all of my weight back that I worked so hard to lose, and just not happy when I look in the mirror. Every week I tell myself I’m going to get back on track, but then I put my clothes on and they just don’t fit me right and I get upset and end up eating all the junk.
With starting my new job it’s been a bit difficult as well. I was so comfortable in my last job and got along with everyone. I was able to talk to them about anything. But now I am starting all over and it takes me a while to really open up to people. Slowly I am getting to know them, but I know I am far from the comfort I had with the others.
With these feelings it brings back my anxiety and uneasy feelings, which will then just make me feel even worse. I get unmotivated, and just want to lie around all day and do nothing. (Which is why I haven’t been posting too much on the gram)
I am going to be working on myself and get back to feeling 100% Fran. But I want everyone who reads this to know that they can talk to me about anything they are feeling and going through. Never be afraid to talk. It can make a world of difference.